PMS wo...
hey~! im feelin better now..hmm got a confession to make. i couldnt help crying today. felt really terrible abt myself. i was at akltg's empowerment session. saw quite a few of e kids i coached.. they told me they're doin very well in school now n im really happy for em.. freda,hanis,gary,josh,brandon but there's also a couple hu din really change...specifically 3 of them.2 from IAG n 1 from SK. i felt that its coz of me... i din manage to help em change... n i feel really terrible. mayb carol was rite..there is sumthing wrong with me tt's y e kids din change.. she din exactly say there's something wrong with me.... but well.. i see it that way. it was nice seein wilson,chi chien, kyrie, amanda,liu ming blah.. after that e company went to coffee bean to have lunch. i met up with chris[luo]. he's a nice guy..alwaz regarded him as a good frien.. but i cant help worryin if im givin him wrong signals.. so i decided to tell him juz now.. haha. yea. 1 problem settled! *ceci smiles!*
in e afternoon,ramesh came. i saw him come by cab.. was sittin outside CB with chris coz he was smokin... i din say hi.. n i din... it was a much later when he came up n said hi.. haha. how sad can things b? =) someone ceci truly cared for now reduced to a stranger? ironic isnt it? =) but i guess some tings r really beyond control..
hmm i saw wahida n josh at A academy-this IAG follow up thing la. it was nice seein em..but it only made me sad that e 2 iag boys i din manage to change din come.. wahida was really bubbly today. haha. im happy for her.. she told me she's e chair person of her class now.. haha. i left shortly with chi chien,kyrie n hafizah. spoke quite abit with chichien coz we went home together. im glad for it coz ive been feelin that i juz haf nuttin to say to many akltg ppl.. carol,chichien,andrew,gary,cherie blah.. after that i came back and dan called. we spoke for like 1 hr on e fone? mayb longer.. haha. i told him how i was feelin n my tears were juz flowin... haha. was juz talkin abt how we met.. n how i rem things.. from how i met leni,to how i met jan n dan and everything.. haha. even things tt took place when i was 4 yrs old and when i was really young.... dan reminded me of something i told him. that if im sad... i shant block out memories.. but rather face em bravely... n in time to come.. i'll learn to let go n leave with memories.. haha. im even tearin rite now as im replayin wad happened today.. gosh. PMS. hmm spoke to leni on line juz now..haha.. our conversations r startin to b funny again. haha.hmm this is a gd sign..coz since our break up hmm in 2002 april? things haven been smooth. like..we hardly spoke... end up bein hostile blah. im glad things r movin in e +ve direction.haha. e silly boy's gonna b up soon to watch soccer. its 2.30am now..
k.. let me recall wad i did yest..fun~! i went for my first salsa class alone~! decided to JUS DO IT! hahaha. i made a couple of new friens.. wa..there were only 6 of us in e class...so e instructor decided to cancel sat classes for good. we're told to go for e wkday lessons. hmm my dance partner was tis guy called sam. he's 27,grad from nus sci fac. sum micro bio engineer i think. we went for lunch n coffee after e 1 hr lesson. quite weird i cud spend e afternoon with a stranger.. but it was kinda cool coz i got myself a new frien.. we kinda clique quite well i guess... funny har.. a 20 yr old lil gal with a 27 yr old guy.. well.. dun worry..i'll take care of myself.. haha. hmm after that i went home to take a half an hr nap b4 i met e council ppl-gary chung jiat ollie jem regine shiauhui mel n christal at chinablack. it was quite fun... but e music wasnt all tt fantastic coz it was kinda at e same rhythm thru e evenin. we left at 2 am.. wow. n i woke up at 6.30am both yest n today. power rite? haha. im glad i met regine thoe..she's alwaz been a dear..
in e afternoon,ramesh came. i saw him come by cab.. was sittin outside CB with chris coz he was smokin... i din say hi.. n i din... it was a much later when he came up n said hi.. haha. how sad can things b? =) someone ceci truly cared for now reduced to a stranger? ironic isnt it? =) but i guess some tings r really beyond control..
hmm i saw wahida n josh at A academy-this IAG follow up thing la. it was nice seein em..but it only made me sad that e 2 iag boys i din manage to change din come.. wahida was really bubbly today. haha. im happy for her.. she told me she's e chair person of her class now.. haha. i left shortly with chi chien,kyrie n hafizah. spoke quite abit with chichien coz we went home together. im glad for it coz ive been feelin that i juz haf nuttin to say to many akltg ppl.. carol,chichien,andrew,gary,cherie blah.. after that i came back and dan called. we spoke for like 1 hr on e fone? mayb longer.. haha. i told him how i was feelin n my tears were juz flowin... haha. was juz talkin abt how we met.. n how i rem things.. from how i met leni,to how i met jan n dan and everything.. haha. even things tt took place when i was 4 yrs old and when i was really young.... dan reminded me of something i told him. that if im sad... i shant block out memories.. but rather face em bravely... n in time to come.. i'll learn to let go n leave with memories.. haha. im even tearin rite now as im replayin wad happened today.. gosh. PMS. hmm spoke to leni on line juz now..haha.. our conversations r startin to b funny again. haha.hmm this is a gd sign..coz since our break up hmm in 2002 april? things haven been smooth. like..we hardly spoke... end up bein hostile blah. im glad things r movin in e +ve direction.haha. e silly boy's gonna b up soon to watch soccer. its 2.30am now..
k.. let me recall wad i did yest..fun~! i went for my first salsa class alone~! decided to JUS DO IT! hahaha. i made a couple of new friens.. wa..there were only 6 of us in e class...so e instructor decided to cancel sat classes for good. we're told to go for e wkday lessons. hmm my dance partner was tis guy called sam. he's 27,grad from nus sci fac. sum micro bio engineer i think. we went for lunch n coffee after e 1 hr lesson. quite weird i cud spend e afternoon with a stranger.. but it was kinda cool coz i got myself a new frien.. we kinda clique quite well i guess... funny har.. a 20 yr old lil gal with a 27 yr old guy.. well.. dun worry..i'll take care of myself.. haha. hmm after that i went home to take a half an hr nap b4 i met e council ppl-gary chung jiat ollie jem regine shiauhui mel n christal at chinablack. it was quite fun... but e music wasnt all tt fantastic coz it was kinda at e same rhythm thru e evenin. we left at 2 am.. wow. n i woke up at 6.30am both yest n today. power rite? haha. im glad i met regine thoe..she's alwaz been a dear..
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