wow.. haha.its really been a while since i wrote anything.. wad a cheesy way to start my blog again. it seems that im foreva at this cycle..blog for a while..stop for a long while.. n pick it up again. i stopped bloggin coz i cudnt take my own style of writin..hate my lack of flair in it. anywayz..im here at newton. its like 5.08am.. m with jorraine n sheryl. we're here coz sheryl din wanna go home coz she quarreled with masa. its heartbreakin... how it feels to b betrayed.esp by sumone u truly loved and accepted. it aint easy to trust sumone so whole heartedly. wad my gal is goin thru now feels so familar... but e battle is hers to fight. this feels so ramesh... like he alwaz believed that as much good friens we may haf.. we haf to fight our battles ourselves coz no one can totally feel wad we're goin thru..

i kinda juz went to a few of my frien's blog.. one of which was my very close frien but one i had to pangsei in dec coz of money. i dun think i was given much of a choice... i really need e money. its so not eazy to raise 2.4K in 1.5mths by myself for fees. wad to do.. im not born with a silver spoon. it broke my heart when i read her blog juz now. she said sum really mean stuff. like she was glad that such an event had to happen coz she saw who her true friens r while sum r rotten like apple to e core? it came as a shock to me coz she was my closest frien in sch.. n even if e whole world din understand...i expected her to.. i feel like cryin.. but i guess this is makin me stronger... as much as i knew i shldnt haf pangseied em... i had to do it.. its work, life. period. sumthing i learnt from workin these 2yrs.... u haf to fight for survival. esp at work.

actually i was quite hurt at e beginnin of e yr 2wks ago.. felt so distant from her.. till i came across e blog juz now.. oh well.. can say im not goin to care.. i cant take it that she used such a term. apple rotten to e core. haha.great. oh well.. if she's that fuckin petty.. i really shldnt give a damn.

sigh.im gonna attempt to blog out my life e past few mths. i was workin at this art sch in newton for a while in e day and waitressin in e evenins.. made sum really close friens.. there's jorraine, sheryl and mag.. jo-she's this really talented gal, well versed in linguistics and art per say. sheryl's a great graphic designer.. and mag's an art educator.. i kinda learnt alot of things abt life from them. jo-that we're young..live out life loud! her passion for beauty is pretty inspiring.. im really kinda impressed by the standards she set for herself with guys. totally unclingy.. even if the suspense was killin her. haha. she simply refuse to sms or msn e guys she was in love with. haha. sheryl-a flightly mighty powerpuff. =) even when life is gettin tough... she's focussin on wad she wants n wad she knows is good for her. she's alwaz a very on time worker. impressive! haha.

work at indochine is fine.... my manager is gay but i love him. i made great friens there too. i belong to a clinque of 4.. 3chefs n 1waitress-me! my chef friens come from sarawak..they're like my big bros.. they kinda wait for me to go home together every evenin... im esp close to ah fan. one of em.. coz he waits for my bus with me everyday from ang mo kio.. he cooks for me too.haha. really like big kor kor. they kinda teach me how to b more streetwise at work. i like em..

sigh. this is gettin borin... see, i mentioned my lack of flair in writing.. oh well...abt my love life. warped. really really warped. its been 2crazy mths. cant say ive a love life kinda Love life.. i did haf sum flings.. with a classmate... with a stranger who picked me at a club n with my ex bf who i still care loads abt.. haha. as much as i still care for my ex and as much as we still r best friens and we haf all that sexual chem...things wont eva b e same..he doesnt make my heart skip a bit anymore. sigh. i kinda think my classmate's quite hot..but sadly..he has a gf.. oh well... haha. hmm.. im kinda gettin to know a guy i met at work better.. think he's a really nice guy. my kinda guy.. let's see if things do work out... =)